04 November 2010

Gratitude List 46-70

My gratitude list tonight is about my husband.

Jonathan and I celebrated our 7 year anniversary on November 1st.  I couldn't imagine living my life with any other man.  Jonathan is my best friend.  He is exactly who I prayed for my whole life.  Our first couple of years in North Carolina were probably our toughest as a married couple; we moved here without jobs, we struggled with our finances, we left behind all of our family and friends in Oklahoma and Texas, and we decided to try and start a family, but found out that we might not ever be able to get pregnant.  I'm not going to lie, it was tough, but the Lord got us through those things.  We're now a million times closer than we've ever been before and I thank the Lord every single day for allowing me to be married to such a wonderful man.

My list...

46.  I'm thankful my husband loves the Lord and constantly strives to be more like Him.
47.  I love his calm personality.  It blends well with my craziness.
48.  I love his family.
49.  He thinks I'm funny and gets my odd sense of humor better than anyone else I know.
50.  We have so much in common and even after 7 years we are able to talk for hours and hours.
51.  He has a passion for serving the Lord and people.
52.  He's a numbers guy which is super because I suck at math, dates, adding up weight at the gym, remembering our checking account number, etc, etc, etc.
53.  He is honestly the sweetest and kindest guy I know.
54.  He smiles a lot.
55.  He'll play catch with me.
56.  He listens to me in my classes at CrossFit.
57.  He gives good advice and keeps me level headed.
58.  I love that he always sounds happy to talk to me on the phone.
59.  He loves animals like I do.
60.  He went to watch The Notebook with me when it came out years ago.
61.  He loves SciFi and action movies and I do too.
62.  Jonathan has a big heart for those in prison.
63.  Little girls LOVE Jonathan.  They could care less about me. 
64.  He never gets upset when I drastically change my hair.
65.  He always tells me he loves me.
66.  He is good about giving me compliments.
67.  He is an excellent provider for me and our furry, four legged daughter.
68.  He always supports me.
69.  The boy has mad brain skills.
70.  He loves me. 

The Wedding
November 1, 2003


I also wanted to post one of my new favorite videos.  I have probably watched this at least 43 times.


Later friends!

~Ash

29 October 2010

Gratitude List 36 - 45

It's been a while since I've posted on this blog.  I really hate it too because I envisioned this blog as a blog of all sorts of radomey randomness from my daily life.  (Jonathan's life too, but he's not as into blogging as me.)  I've been busy lately.  I don't mind it when I'm busy, but I don't like when the business keeps me from doing things I enjoy.   I enjoy blogging.  I'm well aware that my thoughts are a jumbled up, incoherent, "hot mess".  (That's for Lindsay H.)  I also know that I'm neither eloquent or gifted at writing, but I still enjoy doing it.

I've been thinking about my Gratitude List here lately.  A continuing thought of mine has been how much I appreciate my friends from CrossFit Durham, so they're who I'm going to be thankful for tonight.

Here goes...

36.  We're all from diverse backgrounds (E.g., military, corporate trainers, lawyers, teachers, doctors, students, housewives, photographers, small business owners, architects, anthropologists, mathematicians, scientists, straight, gay, lesbian, religious folks, non-religious folks, liberal, conservative, etc., etc., etc.,), yet we all blend together really well at the gym.  We're like a real life melting pot.
37.  I appreciate the open and honest conversations that I am able to have with many of the athletes regarding pretty much anything you can think of.  Many are CrossFit related, but many aren't as well.
38.  I love that there is very little jealousy in our gym.  If there is I don't hear about it or ever tend to notice it.
39.  I'm a big fan of how most people focus on working out and working hard instead of spreading silly, childish, unimportant, time wasting gossip.
40.  I'm thankful for the athletes who always, no matter what, work their tails off.  Every singe day I'm inspired by someone.
41.  I'm thankful for my friends who encourage me to become a better coach by compliments, observations, and suggestions.  I love coaching CrossFit just as much (probably more) than doing CrossFit, so it's important to me that I always improve as a coach.
42.  I am very thankful that most of the athletes respect me for expecting a lot out of them.  I don't know what I would do if I had a bunch of babies in class... probably just dish out lots of OHS as their punishment.  Haha.
43.  I appreciate the athletes who aren't afraid to hold me accountable to the high standards that I hold everyone else to. 
44.  I love that many of us are not only friends at the gym, but outside the gym as well.
45.  I double heart the enthusiasm and encouragement the athletes have for each other.  Again, this goes back to the not being jealous thing.  (A former gym that I belonged to had that issue and it wasn't fun to deal with.)

That's my list for now.   (Oh cow.  I have a long way to go before I reach 1000 things!)  There are honestly so many more reasons why I love the people at CrossFit Durham.  Everyone is friendly, super cool, and always so willing to help each other.  I could go on and on about that gang if I really wanted, but I'm getting tired now and what I'm really wanting is my bed.   :)

See ya later my little ghouls and goblins.

This is what an angry ribbon dancer and a scary
inmate look like.... Obv.

~Ash

10 October 2010

Lukewarm

Our community group is reading through "Crazy Love" by Francis Chan and discussing it together when we meet on Sundays. This evening we met and talked about chapter four which is titled "Profile of the Lukewarm." This has definitely been the most convicting and best chapter yet. I haven't read ahead in the book so I'm not sure if it's the best chapter in the whole book, but it definitely led our group into some very intimate, soul searching, discussions tonight.

In the opening of chapter four Francis mentions the parable of the sower and the different meanings of four types of soil. The seed (God's Word) that fell on the path was trampled on and quickly taken away, the seed that feel on the rocks had no roots, the seed that fell on thorns was choked out from the plants, and the seed that fell on good soil grew and produced lots of fruit.

Most of us Christians think we're good soil.  I mean, why not?  Why wouldn't we be? We go to church, we profess with our tongues that we believe Christ died for our sins, we say our prayers, we serve on Sundays.... we're good soil type of people.

Francis then tells us, "Do not assume you are good soil"

Being of good soil means you're NOT a lukewarm Christian.

Of course you're not lukewarm.  Maybe not a "radical", but definitely not lukewarm.

Okay.  Do me a favor and read some of the ways Francis describes lukewarm people and examine yourself.  I didn't include all of them from the book, but I included most of them.

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE attend church fairly regularly.  It's what's expected of them, what they believe 'good Christians' do, so they go" (Chan, pg 68).

"The Lord says" 'These people come near to me with their mouth and honor me with their lips, but their hearts are far from me.  Their worship of me is made up of only rules taught be men" (Isaiah 29:13).*

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE give money to charity and to the church... as long as it doesn't impinge on their standard of living (Chan, pg 69).

"As he looked up, Jesus saw the rich putting their gifts into the temple treasure.  He also saw a poor widow put in two very small copper coins. 'I tell you the truth,' he said, 'this poor widow has put in more than all the others.  All these people gave their gifts out of their wealth; but she out of her poverty put in all she had to live on'" (Luke 21:1-4).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE don't really want to be saved from their sin; they want only to be saved from the penalty of their sin... Lukewarm people don't really believe that this new life Jesus offers is better than the old sinful one" (Chan, pg 70).

"I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full" (John 10:10).

"What shall we say, then? Shall we go on sinning so that grace may increase?  By no means!  We died to sin; how can we live in it any longer?" (Romans 6:1-2).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE are moved by stories about people who do radical things for Christ, yet they do not act.  They assume such action is for 'extreme' Christians, not average ones.  Lukewarm people call 'radical' what Jesus expected of all of his followers" (Chan, pg. 70-71).
  
"Do not merely listen to the word, and so deceive yourselves.  Do what it says" (James 1:22).

"Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins" (James 4:17).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE rarely share their faith with their neighbors, coworkers, or friends.  They do not want to be rejected, nor do they want to make people feel uncomfortable by talking about private issues like religion" (Chan, pg 71).

"Whoever acknowledges me before men, I will also acknowledge him before my Father in heaven.  But whoever disowns me before men, I will disown him before my Father in heaven" (Matthew 10: 32-33).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE love God, but they do not love Him with all their heart, soul, and strength.  They would be quick to assure you that they try to love God that much, but that sort of total devotion isn't really possible for the average person; it's one for pastors and missionaries and radicals" (Chan, pg 73).

"Jesus replied: 'Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.' This is the first and greatest commandment" (Matthew 22: 37-38).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE will serve God and others, but there are limits to how far they will go or how much time, money, and energy they are willing to give" (Chan, pg 74).

"'All these [commandants] I have kept since I was a boy', he said,  When Jesus heard this, he said to him, 'You still lack one thing.  Sell everything you have and give to the poor, and you will have treasure in heaven.  Then come, follow me.'  When he heard this, he became very sad, because he was a man of great wealth.  Jesus looked at him and said, 'How hard it is for the rich to enter the kingdom of God!' Indeed, it is easier for a camel to go through the eye of a needle than for a rich man to enter the kingdom of God'" (Luke 18:21-25).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE think about life on earth much more often than eternity in Heaven" (Chan, pg 75).
  
"Set your minds on things above, not on earthly things" (Colossians 3:2).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE do whatever is necessary to keep themselves from feeling too guilty.  They want to do the bare minimum, to be "good enough" without it requiring too much of them... They ask, 'How far can I go before it is considered a sin?... How much do I have to give?... How much time should I spend praying and reading my bible?'" (Chan, pg 76).

"The kingdom of heaven is like a treasure hidden in a field.  When a man found it, he hid it again, and then in his joy went and sold all he had and bought that field.  Again, the kingdom of heaven is like a merchant looking for fine pearls.  When he found one of great value, he went way and sold everything he had and bought it" (Matthew 13: 44-46).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE feel secure because they attend church, made a profession of faith at age twelve, were baptized, come from a Christian family, vote Republican, or live in America" (Chan, pg 78).

"Not everyone who says to me, 'Lord, Lord' will enter the kingdom of heaven, but only he who does the will of my Father who is in heaven" (Matthew 7:21).

"LUKEWARM PEOPLE probably drink and swear less than the average, but besides that, they really aren't that very different from your typical unbeliever.  They equate their partially sanitized lives with holiness, but they couldn't be more wrong" (Chan, pg 79).

"Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites!  You clean the outside of the cup and dish, but inside they are full of greed and self-indulgence.  Blind Pharisee!  First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean.  Woe to you, teachers of the law and Pharisees, you hypocrites!  You are like whitewashed tombs, which look beautiful on the outside but on the inside are full of dead men's bones and everything unclean.  In the same way, on the outside you appear to people as righteous but on the inside you are full of hypocrisy and wickedness" (Matthew 23:25-28).

So, what do you think?  How do you feel about your relationship with Christ?  Pretty convicting stuff, isn't it?

Francis then goes on to explain that everyone of us messes up and we all sin.  No one is perfect, but even though we're sinners, we're called to live a life that is far beyond anything that is normal and average.  Christ didn't call some of us to be "radicals" by picking up our crosses and following him daily.  He called ALL of us to live in such a way.

"In the same way, any of you who does not give up everything he has cannot be my disciple" (Luke 14:33).

~Ash

*Italics on scripture added by me.

07 October 2010

Ignorance is...not bliss.

Every now and then I'll see one of those commercials on TV telling me that for less than $1 a day I can save a child's life, or put them through school, or something along those lines. I'll see the pictures and feel bad for them and the environment in which they live, but then the commercial will end and I won't think too much about them after that. Besides, what can $20-30 a month really do? Put food on the table for a week, maybe two? Buy a school textbook? (I'm back in school now and I've learned that will get you about the first two chapters). I mean really, what kind of difference can it make?

Recently I bought a book titled 'Operation World.' It is over 700 pages and it contains information on every country in the world. Population, economy, politics, religion, etc. The purpose of the book is to be able to specifically pray for the entire world, one country at a time. I bought it as a resource and so that I could, specifically, pray for the entire world.

I started flipping through the pages a few days ago to see what kind of info it had. There's a brand new 2010 edition that just came out, but it was expensive so I bought the 2001 version. I know, I'm cheap, but I figured everything would be pretty similar. China would still be communist, Switzerland would still be riding the fence, and France would still be complaining about something. Anyway, I basically just wanted to see the areas in which I could be praying for each country. Of all the things I read, one stood out to me most. Income per person. The way the book is written is average annual income per person, then in parenthesis beside it, what percentage that is compared to the US. I read a few and then flipped to the US to see what these were all being compared to. Remember, this was 2001, so the amount will be a little lower than it is now, but I don't think by much. The average person in the US makes $31,380 per year. While some Western European countries were very similar to the US and some others throughout the world were more, most of the amounts I saw were less. Much less. Honduras-$660. India-$370. Kenya-$340. Madagascar-$250. Haiti-$310. Rwanda-$210. Vietnam-$310. Ethiopia-$100. These are all per year. Take your family out for dinner, go on a date, buy some gas...you're spending 6 months of someone's annual income in some of these countries.

David Platt talks in one of his sermons about Luke 16:19-31. It is a story of a rich man and a poor man named Lazarus. The rich man had anything and everything he ever wanted, with little regard to those around him who were less fortunate. The poor man, Lazarus, spent his days eating the scraps from the rich man's table. The two die and the rich man goes to hell while Lazarus goes to heaven. This is not implying that being rich will send you to hell or that being poor will send you to heaven. We are saved by grace, through faith and faith alone. But it does illustrate what can happen when we harden our hearts to others. So when I read that there are dozens of countries whose people make less than $1000 per year, I pray that I, and this country as a whole, have not become the rich man. Having anything and everything I want, with little regard to those who have much less.

Now, I'm not saying that every time I see a commercial asking me to give 72 cents per day that I should feel guilted into giving. "...for God loves a cheerful giver." -2 Corinthians 9:7. But I am saying that my eyes are starting to open to more than just what's in my little world. Whether it's the guy down on the street corner or the guy half-way across the world, I don't want my heart to continue to be hard towards them.

~JD

Gratitude List 21-35

My personal challenge to come up with a gratitude list of 1000 things continues.  Tonight I'm going to name a few of the ways I'm thankful for my parents.

21. They didn't change my name to Roseanna no matter how many times I begged them to do so when I was 5 years old.
22. My mom taught me the importance of being friendly.
23. My dad taught me the importance of standing up for what I believe in no matter how unpopular my point of view.
24. They are always willing to help me if/when I need help.
25. They love Jesus.
26. I knew what a good marriage should look like way before I ever thought about being married because of their love for each other.  (They recently celebrated 35 years together on Sept. 11!)
27. My mom taught me to protect the ones you love before you protect yourself.
28. My dad taught me the right way to make a fist and how to throw a punch before I got into my first fist fight.
29. Both of my parents instilled in me the importance of being confident.
30. They taught me that it's okay to have less than stellar moments.
31. They didn't care that I was a huge tomboy when I was little girl.
32.  They went to every_single_one of my basketball games and track meets.  They also went to all of the football games (home and away) just to watch my sister and me cheer.  They drove all the way to my state track meets which were 4 hours away in OKC just to watch me run 2 hurdle races and nothing else.
33. My love of animals comes from both of them.
34. My awareness of other people's reactions and their sensitivity to situations comes from my mom.
35. They love me regardless of my mistakes, my attitude, my stubborn moods, and horribly grumpy days.

 Dad and Mom ~ Summer 2010

~ Ash

06 October 2010

7 Miles

Seriously, I heart Matt Chandler.  I know I said this just a couple of days ago, but I love his boldness.  This is a short video (same as "Jesus Wants the Rose"), so don't be a lame-o and say, "I don't wanna watch a stupid video blah, blah, blah".  You know it's going to be good because I wouldn't post it if it wasn't good, yo. 

Just watch it... or I'll make you run sprints or something. Heh heh.


Peace out girl scouts.

~Ash

05 October 2010

Gratitude List

Love Beyond Knowledge is a great blog written by my friend, Anne.  I looooove one of the things she's doing on her blog right now.  She's trying to come up with "One Thousand Gifts" that she is thankful for and she's currently on number 442.  Pretty cool, huh?  I think a gratitude list is an awesome idea and I've decided to start one of my own.  I'd like to see if I can get up to 1000 as well.  Tonight I'm going to try and come up with at least 20 things that make me thankful.

These are no particular order other than how my brain processes random thoughts...

1. The color orange.  It makes me happy.
2. Going to SOSU instead of OSU.  After all, that's where I met Jonathan.  :)
3. Cheering in college even though I almost decided not to.  I would have missed out on some great experiences.
4. My legs.  They make me strong.
5. My Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ!
6. Birthday cake
7. Paul Potorti because he makes me laugh at 6:15 in the morning
8. Our service men and women
9. My community group from church
10. Being married to my best friend
11. My sweet niece, Jadin
12. My sweet niece, Jadin living only 2 hours away from me
13. My dog and her cute brown self
14. Spaghetti Squash
15. Halloween Parties
16. Seeing friends whom I haven't seen in a really long time and them being just as happy to see me as I am them
17. My job.  (I know I said I wasn't going to talk about CrossFit on this blog, but this list is an exception.)  It's the best job in the world.
18. Fall  :)
19. Blender Bottles
20. The super comfy (and surprisingly nice) love seat that Jonathan found on Craigslist for $40.  It's perfect to lay on in our guest room while I work on the blog blah blah.

Yippeee for gratitude!  We'll see if I'm capable of being thankful for 1000 things.  I really hope so because the Lord has given me so many blessings that I'll be ashamed of myself if I can't.


Have a great night friends!  You are blessed, be thankful!

~ Ash